You'll always get what you seed,

A mango seed can't grow an apple tree, and even if you have great seeds , lack of effort will lead to bad harvest too, ofcourse other factors applies too.

I used to have a great seed, that contain lots of LOVE, Devoted, Loyal, and care. It is easier to grow a good quality seed, so I enjoyed throughout the process of growing it. Until i took advantage of it's extraordinary qualities, I gave it minimal care and maintenance to it.

Half way of it growing, termites came, the tree stayed strong, I didn't give much concern as i thought the tree will be okay in the very end. I traveled out of my country to work and see the world hoping the tree could grow without me around. It did not.

After 8 months of travel, the tree had more and more problems, termites are still there destroying the tree, no one was watering the tree with care and love. In the end, the tree died.

I learned my first peccable life lesson, at least i will stop being selfish and move on.
I still hope one day i can mention your name without tearing.

My hands - Leona Lewis

I wake in the morning
Tired of sleeping
Get in the shower
And my make my bed alone
I put on my make up
Talk into the mirror
Ready for a new day, Without you
And I walk steady on my feet
I talk my voice obeys me

I go out at night
Sleep without the lights
And I do all of the things I have to
Keeping you on my mind
But when I think I'll be alright
I am always wrong cause

My hands
Don't wanna start again
My hands
No they don't wanna understand
My hands
They just shake it try to break whatever piece I may find
My hands
They only agree to hold
Your hands
And they don't wanna be without
Your hands
And they will not let me go
No they will not let me go

I talk about you now
And I do without crying
I go out with my friends now
I stay home all alone
And I don't see you everywhere
And I can say your name easily
I laugh bit louder
Without you

And I see diferent shades now
And I, I'm almost never afraid now
But when I think I'll be ok
I am always wrong cause

My hands
Don't wanna start again
My hands
No they don't wanna understand
My hands
They just shake it try to break whatever piece I may find
My hands
They only agree to hold
Your hands
No they don't wanna be without
Your hands
And they will not let me go
No they will not let me go

Sometimes I wait
I see them reaching out for you
Quietly break
Whatever sheilds I spent so long building up
I cannot fake
Cause when they cry I'm almost broken... ?...
They miss holding my baby

My hands, My hands

No they don't wanna understand
They just shake it try to break whatever piece I may find

My hands
Your hands
They don't wanna be with us?
And they will not let me go
No they will not let me go

Everything Brand New

18th March 2010~
tomorrow i will live my new life.
I regretted immediately right after i made the decision.
Losing you makes my heart sore.....You are the best i ever had....
you treat me great, love me the most , you gave me everything that i wanted.
You are my last and first....I mean it...Last...

I hope you have a better life without me, and i will move on as well.

Kitty's Tale

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